My hands are in the dark
Grabbing every inch of the lights beaming through my fingers
Some sees me laughing
Some sees me struggling
Whatever they saw was the reflection in a water
The only thing I kept from touched was just my ignoble soul
with a timid broken heart
I don't understand why and how we've come this far
I feel ashamed that I shut the fking door in front of you
I am used to sheltering myself into a shell although it is fragile too
Which also blur me
Sadly I screwed up everything around me
to make sure they won't hurt me again
So one day you will stop chasing me
For my pathatic gimmick game